High School

Finally, my friends are gonna graduate, the last time all are being held in the same place, learning the same things, and fight for the same target. Graduate with tones of different emotions, happiness, tears of joys, yet we know we are not willing to be apart from each other but the reality doesn’t allow. I was hit by this 2 years ago, time slips quietly.. We used all our might to ensure that the national anthem, the state’s, our school song are well sung, because we knew, it was our last time to stand in the assembly hall, to sing together with the flags raised.. our graduation song, which had held our tears at bay. And it was our honors to be chosen as the representatives amidst all graduating students to interpret the graduation song.

This year, a new song is created, composed by our peers, I wish I could be there to own the moment together for the last time with my batch of friends, the purple tagged pupils, but the fact is always opposing. The truth of lives. I therefore hereby wish them well, wish them strike in their coming exams, paint their futures with colours and cheer for our friendships!

teens

what blows me to their blogs, don’t know..

realise one of them had done something should not be done by this age, the one is who I knew before in a team.. terrible.. what makes the brain? ever think of the future? silly..

another one,  childish to the core… what is better is one of the childish talking is funny, wished someone ” hope all your dreams come true, don’t wish me die can jor.” !! I was like ‘ this is a teenager huh?!’

by the way, I’m a teenager too, maybe an ‘elder teenager’ ? hah!

causality

ya, everything happened for a reason, besides the timing, whether the thing was good or bad.. some even planted without your knowing, or maybe it ended up as it was because it’s the ‘fruit’ of all previous things.. all imperceptible changes will eventually turn out to be something  tangible then.. I personally think that it was caused by the accumulations before… Sometimes, it is not about blaming, but to think what incurred it, like a kid will act like how it was nurtured, the same concept…  this is applicable to the reason of the changing of a character…

Some Alcohol In My Stomach

I enjoy the occasion…

Blue…

Injured…

Sports Injury…

From the ‘crak’ sound, I know it will be a long rest…

Don’t ask me. I’m too sad on it…

Pain…physically and mentally…

This news spreads unwittingly… thanks for those calls…

Yet, they are dumbfounded by the news, because it is AGAIN, AGAIN and AGAIN…

I’m almost crazy…

Strange.. Very strange, 1st time to see, read, try to understand/relate, remember…. freaked out…(freaking out is not what I’m trying to..)

Yet it is something like breathing, involuntary but compulsory…

Fortunately in the unfortunate situation, I realise there is an understanding friend of mine… I’m glad that she said she is pity on me to have such a heavy thing… She had been seeing thing from my perspective for which I kept telling her that I really appreciate her saying.. Although it may seems like a simple saying, but it means a lot… Having this quality rather than cavalier attitude is to be hailed..

I’m not the one who holds all the aces, what I have to do is just to grit my teeth against the hurdle…

哑子吃黄连。。。

今天吃了一只死猫， 应该不算很大只吧。。。

真搞不懂她们脑的构造！！ 远见啊， 她们的远见呢？？？

还好，这只死猫吃得还有一些值得。。 因为我明白当中的benifits..

[ as people see  tomorrow as their future, you have to see the peak of the world as your future...]

Dream

This is not the day dreaming or the big ambition or what. It is a dream dreamt during a sleep, it’s kind of terrible that I could vaguely remember. I’m scared yet glad I dreamed that because my friend used to tell me that a dreamt dream that gave us pictures after we woke up will never happen.

Still, that is one time that my friend asked me not to eat pau as she saw me choking on a pau in her dream..And she was taking it seriously! Her talking cracked me up that she was the one who told me that ‘dream remembered will not happen’ principle..

On Cloud Nine ^.^V

Went midv just now, at the garden, got to see the korean, had dinner at the ‘congee mee house’ (direct translate), everything was fine..

well, the most important point is…

I have got a new kid with me!! welcome to the family!!!

my evil kid.. feel like wearing it to bed.. oooohhhhhooooooohoooohhoooohoooooo~~~~~~~~

tell me you’re happy that I found my kid eventually..

to be fair, I will show another 1 month old kid too which I wore for twice, for it not to be jealous…

look, the purple kid is just a bit too happy to show its face up… >.<

Dorm…

Let’s see what happened inside my room these days..

we decided to have spaghetti that day…

materials??                                                                                                     the sauce…

my dearest roommies and I                                                                  the spaghetti..

again, materials….                                                                                       1st time buying mangosteen all by myself..(6kg, which I’m                                                                                                                              able to finish in 3 days..y? simple, mangosteen is the love                                                                                                                                of my life..)

( the sweaty satay…)                                                                                (our honoured guests..)

(I’m asked to pose while eating… =.=|||)

On the other day, in the morning, baboon cooked us breakfast…. ^.^V

Obviously you know I just woke up…

I don’t like the orange coloured curtains then I put on another desired piece of cloth… yes, I don’t like orange colour nor the orange that can be eaten… uh-uh

the beans…                                                                                                   yup, we must have a great breakfast to play bsktbl..

Elizabeth                                (I wondered why everyone reacted in the same way..)                       Baboon

she would have killed me when she sees these pictures…. >.<

guess which one is mine.. you got it right you’ll get the breakfast.. xP

~good meals always satisfy me~

regret…

I’m regretful, always be… regret of what I have done in the previous minutes, seconds.

There are bad things planted deep inside my soul, the evil side of my soul.. I just can’t control it, and I don’t know why the devil wins, all the time. Just… don’t know why…

Am I playful? Yes, I am.

Am I TOO playful? Yes, I am.

I have been hoping I am not playful, be more serious to deal with all the things, or perhaps I possess HALF the ” seriousness” of any friend of mine.

Nevertheless many of my friends have wanted me to stay playful always…

Am I leading their way of living in my life? Nope, I am NOT!! I just born to be playful! what to do??

I played and I studied, but the ratio will never be balanced.

I went through exams and I regretted, regretted that i never think of balancing the ratio before…And, I am regretting yet..

I deserved the low pointer as a consequence to my attitude. I should have taken my teachers’ advice into account, “aim for a higher achievement” and “aim my goal and strike it” as well.

I do aimed and I had not pull on the trigger or I had the bullets out of stock, so…it’s just not gonna work!

Okay, alright, I have made up my mind, I will put in all my effort to have the trigger pulled and have my bullets stocked and aim for the same time.

“An apple a day keeps the doctors away.

A book a day keeps the regrets away.

An onion a day keeps the kisses away.“

Process

Yesterday went to shop with my mum and bumped into my primary school teacher, had been sending each other regards. Told my dad after that, my dad asked whether she inquired after my hand’s condition. As for my hand, I did not blame anyone but me, myself and I. It is my naivety causing my hand located out of joint and end up with dislocation and some bone fractured on my hand. She did not mean to dislocate my hand also, it is just an accident. For some time after the incident, I could sometimes feel the guilty in her. Until yesterday, I feel like she already let go the incident.

I get my hand dislocated, sprained both of my ankles, and yet I regret over all the actions causing those injuries as the normal strengths are gone to achieve maximum performance…

And now, still undergo the healing process for my recent injury, it has been 34 days since my same ankle is sprained again, it takes time, I can’t imagine if there is one day I am unable to run, to jump and can barely walk… As if there is no meaning for me to lead a life.

Time is never exhausted!!

10 minutes to 26th, and now, still consider as 3 more days to come(soon to be two more days), I am getting older day by day, going to strike the 18th in my life, is there something significant when we reach 18th? Obviously I don’t know. What is in my mind is that I am able to walk into the cinema with my head raised up, with my eyes looked into the ticket seller’s proudly and never scare to be blocked for those “18″ movies. I can recall that time went for movie with my friends, planned to watch Wanted, it is an “18″ movie, the ticket seller reluctant to sell a ticket to me initially, then what will I do, I can’t give up the action movie by Angelina Jolie, then, sure we all argued with her, telling her that age of 17and a half is legal to watch the movie, hah! With so many mouths of us, which side do you think will win?! That things is not gonna happen after 2 more days, it is NOW two more days left!!

Wandering

 Early in the morning my friend gave me a message asking whether I’m free today, luckily I did off my phone last night, if not I will unable to continue my dream, haha. Having my brunch till 12pm, and my phone rang, surprisingly, my friend and her friend are in K.L and heading to midv. I knew it! I knew it! I really knew it at the moment she was asking whether I am free today. Just have the intuition that she is nearby. Grab my wallet and mobile phone, goin’ to ktm station and for the very first time taking commuter by MYSELF!! Meeting her and her friend, introducing each other, talking, eating, playing… It is fun hanging around with them. I think mainly because we are most likely in the same category, crazy people! (Don’t both of you admit?)  We have taken some pictures and, I realise that both of them have poor shooting skill! ( I’m just telling nothing but the truth!) I am skillful And, here are some pics.

                                     

 poh xuan and I ~ after eating my fish and shrimps

 

su yin(hope I spell your name correctly), my new friend and I

 

After coming back from midv, the clock shows 8pm, take a shower, then leave for Jusco in Belakong for a Chinese movie named Wushu: The Young Generation. All actors/actresses in that movie do have the real kung fu. Quite nice.

Lastly, hope they are having fun in their trip to K.L.

Beautiful Morning

The day satisfies me with the cooling weather, the birds are chirping and the greenery… The weather is comfortable, the breakfast is contented, everything is fine, nonetheless, these few days I wake up earlier than before automatically, I want to sleep  longer. No matter I slept 4am in the morning, or 2am, I’m also waking up at that specific time, that’s just too early for me. Help me!!! Anyway, I’m not gonna sleep earlier.

I want it back!!!!

 My guts. Words are spinning around in my mind and can’t find a way out, thro’  the opening of my mouth.  Powers are all over me and lost their way, not available in front of public eyes. Hiding behind my shadow. Known only by my heart and soul. What for I’m having them, waiting the day to come as they are willing to expose themselves and letting people to learn them. A hero/heroin inside his/her room, a passer-by on the street. A heart means a lot, the key for success and failure. Ruin your life or make your days. Aim or being aimed.

One Footprint Forward

It has been times, when people are having the bravery to step forward, why don’t you just have a footprint forward also, action taken by only a single side will fail anything. Why? Why act like a coward? Where is your courage?! Since secondary school, people dare to appraoach you, you just swallow your words down to your stomach, although that is your dream… Hopefully, there is a day, day when you are willing to puke your words out, out from your mouth, after long saved in your mind, show your guts!!!

You, a friend or an academic acquaintance!?

Sometimes, I don’t even know what you want to prove on your friendship between you both in front of me, although me and your ‘evidence’ are friend also, to show your intimacy towards your ‘evidence’ ?! To show on me how you know your ‘evidence’ well more than me?! To show how strong your ability is to occupy your ‘evidence’ ?! Even you know your ‘evidence’ is in an appointment with me!? You used to interrupt the conversations between me and your ‘evidence’! Those actions are simply annoying!! To you, I am always nothing in everything, thus, you just need no to conduct those comportment in front of me okay?! You maintain an immature demeanour throughout. Its my fault before, but others are giving me more chances with a generous mind, you are too mean on it, you obliterate all my past contributions, you make me realise the cruelty on you, after all those disappointments, you longer our distance in between, you leave a speechless me on you. You enlighten me that a single fault can kill all efforts.

 

[ This post does not mean to violate anyone of you until I point you out, it merely shows a personal comment of me. ] 

Eyes In The Sky

To whom it may concerned, stealing others’ things or to be specific, clothes, including lingerie is an extremely bad behaviour, especially to those who are having their higher education in a university! My stuffs are stolen for times yet I am furious for my recent lost! I love that shirt very much, a  plain round neck t-shirt with a green little worm on it, the front view in front and the rear view of worm at the back, could you imagine how beautiful, how appealing it is?! I LOST IT!!! I just wore it for the first time and it is gone! I put notices everywhere this time and searching for it in every floor till the day I left my dorm I am still searching for it, and it is declared “lost”. Brand new pants, lingerie… what to do?? I lose to those uncivilised mindset. This is a matter of individual conscience and judgement. Everyone is responsible upon its own manner. If you think it won’t trouble your conscience then just go ahead!

        -[ siapa makan lada, dialah yang berasa pedas]-

scare…

Am I scare or nervous? Nervous then I am scare? I don’t know…

Moulding…

I don’t feel like writing anything today, just some random thoughts and something do not make sense. Holidays for two months, thinking of  carry out some useful activities but have no idea what to do, two weeks passed and nothing happened. Put on some weights so far, worry it will continue, then all my clothes won’t fit, have to work it out.

When I say I’m lazy, I’m really lazy though I have lots of time, even lazy to type on here, this is the real holidays, nothing to care about when you’re playing, hanging around, doing some stupid things, just a call can make me go from Kajang to Tanjong Karang, I’m not insane, I’m enjoying when I do not have to think about the consequences of playing too much. Isn’t it fun? Don’t be jealous on me! I have an idea, going backpacking in our country, but no one keep me accompany, neither one has time as I do. So, it ends up like that, just thinking.

Enjoying wearing my pyjamas for the entire day, will be wearing the proper one just for a few hours a day. Collecting movies and dramas in my mind these days as well as foods, so you know how come the balance shows an increasing figure everytime. Am also like bla bla bla with my family. I’m still leading a salubrious lifestyle as I’m exercising everyday, and mom is nagging on my darkened skin, I have no idea why the ‘Mr. Sun’ works OT everyday.  Yup, so I can’t help on my skin colour.

Too occupied with unimportant things until I nearly forget some important figures.. Gosh, luckily I didn’t.. ;P

:(

feeling bad right now… watched an unhappy scene of a drama.

what would one feel when one is dying..

could one stand the atmosphere..?

hit me….

Lost something that I used to have much conviction in obtaining… This thing troubles my mind these few days. This does let me down, let me think deeply.. Just that little, just a bit more, I will gain my victory.. destined.  Asked myself, ‘is that that important?’ , ‘No’ is an answer to cheat on myself. As usual, I can cheat on everyone else but myself. Anyway, learn from mistake.. It’s no use crying over spilt milk! Take the responsibility.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY!!!! OooPs.. your age ain’t a secret anymore!!!!!

Murder of a Lizard

I challenged myself not to on the air-cond the other day because mom dared me. However, I couldn’t stand the weather anymore and on the air-cond eventually. Phew~~ ‘da lak da lak da lak’, the fan inside hit a creature! I knew it was a lizard! Lizard, a great fear of mine! Damn it!! The tail of the creature ‘flew’ out of the air-cond just after the strange sound! The red button on the main swicth was pressed as soon as I could, followed by a suffocating lizard crawled out at the corner. And I ended up sleep with just fan! Darn HOT! The remains dropped by its own then. Eewwww!!

 Nonetheless, lizards produce their offspring quite fast!

                                        *PG13 picture

                                                  And so it is…

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人生短短几十年， 来去匆匆。。

转两转，就失去体温了。。

世俗的包袱， 个人的执着 ， 又能说不理就不理吗？ 真的可以那么潇洒吗？

如果可以， 为什么有人还是觉得白总比黑好呢？

一生人里都背着它，想着它， 到头来还不是赚不回自身的快乐。 这又何苦呢？

放开吧。。。

受人恩惠实在是很辛苦的一件事。

太多次了， 以为已经习以为常， 但是还是没有， 有时有， 有时没有。

不过， 总算成功了， 免了解释。

只能怪自己无能为力。

所以我说阿姐啊， 自己有能力真的是很好的， 记得有多余的钱一定要自己存起来， 靠自己多一点。。

有时觉得， 赢得了钱， 那， 情呢？ 很乱， 不懂。

Why North pole and South pole must attract each other?

Start working out the answer for this title? Don’t worry, there is no answer in my mind as well because those words flew around my mind seconds ago and I simply put in here.. So, I’m not going to discuss anything about that. Lame huh?!

Just have my student life commenced again, yea, feel like an AGAIN though resting for three-month… Just like a summer break for one who lives on the equator. weird..

Currently have no any idea what spurs me to write, yet I know I HAVE TO update however..

These few days I’m bored in the evening, lack of ball mates, no, baboon u all don’t be confused with this, I’m not directing this to y’all, we could not play with just that . of people among us, ya, that’s just . of us, and while playing with those juniors, I kind of  WALKING around and have to keep myself  low profile throughout, know what I mean??  Like a student loitering after school, but not in a shopping complex but in a court  =.=|||

Start learning tennis today, trying out the racquet holding method, the skills are a bit akin to table tennis but an enlarged version of it.. To be competent in both squash and tennis has been my resolution always. I always hope that I am able to master all kinds of sports.. heheh..

There was a story for today anyway. Long long long time ago, there was an angel……( hey! no more bedtime story!!!)

Alright. The fact is…

When I was almost finished bathing, there was a person washing her clothes outside in her pail on the basin, then she poured the ‘polluted’ water INTO my bathroom to pollute my legs I think, or whatsoever, hey man!!! didn’t you know that’s a person inside??!!! (+.+) At that moment, I really do not know how should I react… After I was done, I came out and looked that person into her eyes through the mirror like nothing happened. I didn’t mean anything, I was only curious on the look of this kind of person.. @_@ end of story..

[ we fried eggs inside our room today!!!! shh....]

Don’t talk to me right now!!!!

Just wasted my two hours on a bullshit session!!! Really annoyed! I don’t need those unnecessary reading! What I need is the actual explanations!!! I did not get even a tiny thing from that session other than the attendance!!!

whining..

Just want to complain about the internet connection in my uni, it has been 5 days, I hope I won’t be counting anymore… arh!!!! student welfare dude!! Where is it??!!  Wondering how can I complaining here, easy, using my roommate’s broadband..

Today, we are making the red bean dessert again, ya, inside our room, believe me…

then due to my laziness, I am reluctant to go downstairs to buy my lunch, heheh, have some chocolates, cookies, snacks and all those… after that, for sure I think of carry out my favourite activity, sleep, yeah, , my expertise, my big interest, as you know..

when I wake up,  one of my roommates bought me an American Brownies from secret recipe…. right in time..hohohoho, thanks for the treat…

haha, heart my roommates…..